2009年12月28日星期一

沮丧

今天,参加了 Lion Dance Camp
第一次感到那么的沮丧
或许那根本就不是我的天地
说句实话, 我确实是被逼去的
本来还认为可以爱上它
原来, 我错了...
朋友, 谢谢你们的用心良苦
可是我毕竟是个"鼓痴", 十分地对不起
如果你是愿意教我的话,
那就别摆一张不耐烦的脸,
那只会让我觉得自己很没用,
给我一点鼓励吧!
别误会, 我并没有责怪你的意思,
只是很直接的说一句, 我不是学得很开心

** 感谢主, 让我的努力有回报
很开心...不.. 应该是开心得飘飘然
我竟然在 PMR 中考取状元
那种欢乐, 真的难以形容..

2009年12月5日星期六

I'm Back

I had been leaving for about eight days. My holiday was memorable but also extremely tired. It was full of fun... with anger too=.=''
I would like to say 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' to Yee Xin with an apology because I think i am the last one who sends the felicitation to her.. Sorry~

2009年11月25日星期三

秘密


真的不明白
为什么整个生活似乎充满秘密
讨厌某某人是秘密
喜欢某某人是秘密
别人告诉我的话也是秘密
甚至个人的行踪也是一个秘密
为什么生活就不能简单一些, 纯真一些
那么
说话时就不必顾前顾后的
很想告诉你
但是
请原谅我
那在别人的眼中毕竟是个不能说的秘密...

2009年11月21日星期六

My Favourite Singer

Khalil Fong

Jay Chou

Jam Hsiao

Jam Hsiao

2009年11月19日星期四

无奈

同一个家庭
同一个父母
同一个成长环境
却有两个不同的思想
难道26年
对他来说还不够让他成长吗
为什么要批评父母的不是
而不是去反省自己的行为
那自私自利
懒惰
不求上进的行为呢
别总是埋怨你得的不够多
想想你为这个家付出多少
每次与你吵架后
心很痛
也很累
不明白为什么妈咪总是选择让步
但是
在你面前我决不忍气吞声
但愿你能改变你的行为

2009年11月17日星期二

了解

可以說出自己想要的东西
但是
却没有勇气去争取
痛恨自己的懦弱
很想拥有 却害怕失去
一得一失 十分难受
有时不在乎失去
只在乎曾经拥有
有时却又害怕失去
宁可不曾拥有
那样或许我就不会抱着太大的希望
不明白
真的不明白
更不了解自己...

2009年11月13日星期五

台北小巨蛋

12月26日
是敬腾的第一次
第一次在小巨蛋举行演唱会
很失望
我不是那陪他渡过''第一次''的其中一个
很希望
能亲临现场, 为他加油打气
我会一直支持他
直到永永远远...
很期待
也很期望
萧敬腾的 LOVE MOMENTS (爱的时刻 自选辑)
不知道是否能在马来西亚买到呢
很想拥有
很害怕错失...

2009年11月10日星期二

对不起

只想对你说声对不起,
不能时时见到你已是我心中的一根刺,
所以,
我便买了一只小羊来代表你的存在,
但是,
粗枝大叶的我,
把宝贝小羊给弄丢了...
还说会陪你一生一世,
就连一个简单的小羊,
我都没有能力去保护好它,
对不起...

2009年11月9日星期一

A Friend Most True

This poetry touches me a lot:

I need to know if you’re my true friend,
will you be by my side until the end?
Can I tell you my secrets deep,
and trust them in your heart you’ll keep?
We are neither of us without our flaws,
can you accept mine as I will yours?
I’ll be a shoulder to cry on when you’re blue,
will you be there for me when I need you?
No matter how busy I will make time for you,
if you are busy will you make time for me too?
I will take your hand and comfort your tears,
will you hold me and soothe my fears?
I will give you joy and many warm smiles,
can we share that even across many miles?
I will not forget what’s important to you,
will you remember what’s important to me too?
With you my most favourite things I’ll share,
If only I know do you truly care?
If you can accept me as I do you,
then I will know you are a friend most true.


By Wendy Hinson

2009年11月7日星期六

天长地久

已有许久的时间没有见到你,
对你的思念,
有增无减,
痛恨你无法出现,
好让我看看你,听听你的声音.
每晚依然希望能有你的声音相伴,
陪我入睡.

与你的距离看似十分遥远,
但支持你的心,
将永远不变,
以至天长地久,海枯石烂...

2009年11月6日星期五

Nothing More...

I take you as my brother,
nothing more or less...
However, you are a good brother,
or maybe a good friend,
don't misunderstand my piece of mind.

2009年10月17日星期六

再见,朋友...

本来,我打算用英文来写这篇,
虽然拼音时常把我搞得一头雾水,
但是,我想,
还是华文更能够表达我对你的那一分情,那一分不舍...

朋友,
请你允许我的后知后觉,
我在今早才得知你的离去...
事实让我失去一个朋友,一个难得一见的朋友.
虽然与你相处的日子不多,认识你的日子少,
但是,只想告诉你,
你在我的心中已占有了一席之地.
在我心中,
你确实是位值得珍惜的朋友.

记得在中一时,
我们还一起完"congkak"呢!
不久前,就在今年中,
我们还一起去看电影...
虽然与你说的话不知有没有说上十句,
我却相信你是一位好朋友.
以往,
我们之间的每个对话都是由你开始,
现在的我,十分痛恨自己内向的性格,
以致我无法更深一步的认识你..
如果时间可以倒流,
我希望开始话题的人是我,
让我们之间可以留下更多的回忆.

当我得知你的离去时,
眼泪就在眼眶里打转,
虽然我没有泪流满颊,但是,
一颗如珍珠般大的眼泪足以代表我对你的思念.

我时常都对自己的表现感到不满,
一没达到目标,我就痛恨自己的无能.
谢谢你,我的朋友,
你让我知道,最重要的是,
我拥有机会去尝试.
相信现在的你一定化身成为天使了吧!
但愿我们之间的记忆可以变成回忆,贮存在我脑海的档案中,
永不磨灭.
再见了,朋友...

2009年10月15日星期四

真的变了

今年的你,
距离似乎与我很遥远...
我每天都问自己,
到底是你变了还是我,
或许是我吧...变地更容易看透你的心

如果允许我做选择的话,
我希望你依然还是以往那善良又纯真的你.
但是,依我看来,
你确实已不再是以往的你了...
现在的你,
是个心机重的人,
你的讽刺,你的虚伪,你的谎话...
都一一地被我看穿,
我选择装傻来保住我们之间的友谊.
你或许不知道我已掩饰得非常辛苦..

坦白地说,
我十分不满被别人在我背后射黑箭,
如果有什么不满当面跟我说,
我真的一点也不介意..
有些事我隐瞒起来一定有我的原因,
请不要讽刺我,请开门见山!
还有,
不要在我面前说一套做一套,
我讨厌双面人!

2009年10月14日星期三

悲伤还是失望

再一次,
我又败给了"粗心",
它似乎依然紧紧地把我给捉住了...
很可怕, 真的很可怕.

当我发现自己的作文不切题时,
我的眼前一片空白,额头也挤出了豆大的汗珠..
这绝不是采用夸张修辞手法..
那种感受真的很可怕...

我要感激我的朋友,
感谢他们的关心,但是,
他们似乎不了解我....
我的心痛, 心如刀割的痛, 他们又怎能了解呢?

我每次都很努力的做个乐观又开朗的人,
我总不想把自己真实的一面表露出来,
但是,
我却总是掩盖不了我那悲观的一面,
因为成绩的不理想,
开朗的我已不再开朗了,
或许我的欢笑声会减少,但是,
我的决心依然不变..

我只想要做爸爸眼中最棒的女儿,
我依然还是我.
我要在失败中学习成长,
与失败拼个你死我活,
我是不会轻易罢手的,
等着瞧吧!

2009年9月5日星期六

WHO AM I

Sometimes, I try to ask myself, " who am I? " Why should I act and talk so differently from myself. I think I am similar to ' Dr. Jekyll ', who is so hypocritical. My mum always encourages me to be brave enough to stand up and speak up for myself. Anyways, I don't dare.... and it causes me to hate myself. Why can't I just speak straight to the point? Why should I always beat around the bush until someone cannot get what I try to say? Is that because of I am timid or coward? Once again, I hate myself...

Maybe it's just me... A little girl who don't dare to speak up for herself besides expressing her own frame of mind in front of other people.

I always think that this world is not like a " puppy world ", which is unpolluted, pure, simple and full of loves. On the contrary, it's full of artifice, hate, doubtful.... the only survivor for this world is the strongest one.

Nikos Kazantzakis once said that since we cannot change the reality, let us change the eyes that see the reality.

2009年8月29日星期六

致于我的朋友

嗨, 相信你一定很期待, 迫不及待地想看看内容吧!
好啦, 我就不再吊你的胃口了...
其实也没什么特别的事, 只是你很在乎罢了
你的宝贝-"绿茶" 是我们营会的 game master。
哈! 你肯定十分痛恨自己为何没参加该营会吧...
其实, 我非常清楚你对他的感觉
但是, 你却往往口是心非, 你往往被你那红得像苹果般的脸给出卖了...
你或许选择了逃避, 认为你和他是篇没有结局的小说...
无论如何, 你必须明白小说也是由 人篇写的.
不要让命运来决定你的一生, 应该由你来决定命运..

Samuel,
虽然我认识你的时间不来得比别人长,
但是, 我的祝福一定不比他们少.
人生虽然看似非常的不公平与残忍..
深层的想一想, 或许上帝已在你的身上放下一个职责, 要你经得起风浪...
无论如何, 别放弃,别气馁... 只要放眼望去, 希望总在不远处..
加油!

2009年8月28日星期五

Holidays

Holiday is going to be over. How do I feel about the holidays? Actually, I did enjoyed the holidays very much. On the other hand, I want to ask myself that have I prepared for my next test. I don't know....

But, I am very sure that I will try my best to obtain better results.

I am scared... no... maybe is worried about my last results. During the coming school days, the teachers are going to give back our test papers.

What does test mean for me? It means future, money, hope, opportunities.... It means every thing for me. There is one thing I know about density, it's that you can't count on it forever.

2009年8月26日星期三

上帝

人生中总是有许多的不如意
这并不代表着上帝不爱你
而是, 他爱你胜过一切
上帝要考练你, 让你从而取得更丰盛的生命

今天, 我和大哥"打了一场大仗",
我累了.
当时, 我知道魔鬼撒旦已成功掌握了我,
我好怕, 我祈求上帝帮助我,
与我一起面对撒旦....

不如意的事总是不停地出现在我的生命当中,
但是,
我知道上帝的爱胜过一切,
他将陪伴我经历人生的风浪

当你忧伤时,
上帝说:
喜乐的心,乃是良药;
忧伤的灵,使骨枯干...

爱是永久忍耐,
又是恩慈...
爱是永不止息。

2009年8月22日星期六

Chinese

Actually, I'm a pure Chinese girl who come from a pure Chinese family. Hence, I was born with a sentence of broken english although my father is an expert in english and I was taught to speak Chinese since I was still a little baby. But... I really want to improve my english. So, I start blogging. Today, I decide to use Chinese to speak out for my mind and I just find out that the chinese words really make me go crazy. It's really hard to write it out one by one on the computer or maybe just because I am not that professional in using computer to write Chinese. Anyways, I will try my very best next time.

I just start a ' Jam Hsiao Fans Club ' in the facebook, please support and join the club. Thank you...

2009年8月21日星期五

I'm back!

It seemed a long time that I did not update my blog... because of so many reasons:
Firstly, my internet was disconnected for the last few weeks
Secondly, I was sitting for my school test.
Finally, I am free now for about eight days.. yeepee...

The following is what I want to say to one of my friends, Samuel, who is sick:
Although the world seems unfair to you, but I am sure that you can get over it. We are all with you and we do care about you. Don't give up. The most revolutionary act one can commit in our world is to happy.

2009年7月17日星期五

Father

My father is like a policeman,
he will do everything to protect me against danger.
My father is like a joker,
he tells me a lot of jokes which make me laugh like a drain.
My father is like a teacher,
he knows everything that i don't know.
My father is like a repairman,
he will repair anything that is damaged or spoilt in our house.
My father is like a good driver,
he will drive me to everywhere, as long as the place is where i wish to go.
My father is like a present from the God,
he is so precious for me.

But...

He is now a patient,
he suffers from diabetes and high blood pressure.
Thanks God,
the diseases have not been marked as dangerous yet
he has to take in pills to control the sickness besides having a balanced diet.

Luckily...

He is still healthy.
He is so precious for me.
I love my father and do care about him.
I pray that God is always with him and protects him from dangerous diseases.

Thank you, my God.

2009年7月10日星期五

Why?

Why... why....why? I wonder why my classmates always like to make fun on Jay Chou and Jam Hsiao. Seriously, they are my favorite singer. I don't allow anyone to ' bully ' them... because i love them. Sherly, Ryan, Shu Chee, Esther and Jin Ming, stop making fun on them. They are the best for me.

2009年7月3日星期五

Friendship

Is there really a true friendship on the earth?
If there is one, i will appreciate it very much.
Friends are those who are willing to share happiness and sadness with us. They will not take advantage of us, they will also not backstab us or even say bad things behind us or jealous of what we have...
If there is true friendship, i will treasure it as a treasure of priceless worth.
My friend, who seems like my best friend is actually not. What do i mean? Most of my classmate think that i have a very good friendship with my ' best friend '... No! It isn't true. But... I don't dare to say it out. I am scared that i will hurt her. She is my friend but not the ' best ' one. She always like to sophistry and thinks that she is the right one and we are the wrong one. She is moody. The worst is that i find that i cannot communicate with her... Her jokes aren't funny but i don't dare to tell her because i am not her, i am not the kind of person who talks so straight, and i just try my best to pretend as if the jokes are really funny.
I hate myself. I wonder why i want to act so sham. It's not me.
Okay.... i think i have to stop now as i am getting angry and angry. And my cells are going to die.. Anyway, she is still my friend but not included in the ' true friends group'.

2009年6月26日星期五

Jam Hsiao

I am delighted because I successfully bought Jam's book at Popular bookshop . And now I am waiting for his album.

2009年6月20日星期六

Disappointment

Disappointed? Yes.. I'm really very disappointed about my result. My average not even up to 86, that is a bad news, really bad for me. I wonder why I'm having a back slight this month. I'm a very very careless girl, i nearly killed myself when i first saw my Maths test papers. Careless... careless and careless again. Besides, I also dislike the recycle bins.. Hm.... i mean the ' three colors dustbins'. I again really really hate that. Why, why? Why the recycle bins should have three colors, can't it be only one color. That confuse me a lots... Yes, I have done badly in Civic about the recycle bins. Anyways, I will do better in the following test. I belief that i can do it. I will try my best to be the best and beat the rest... Don't give up... ^.^

2009年6月19日星期五

Teachers' Day

Yee Xin and I.
The presents which were for teacher.
Presents... Give me one...
The decoration of my class.

My friends and I visited the Crocodile farm during the last school holidays.

2009年6月13日星期六

The Coming School Days

Tomorrow is the school day... One of my friends told me that most of us are going to fail the chinese essay because of the keyword in the question. Why? It's that really so important about the keyword? What a strict teacher she is? Anywhere, I should try to get use of her style of teaching, although sometimes i do not agree with what she says. I know... I know.... Teachers have contributed a lot to the school and our futures. We should appreciate them, except for my drawing teacher. Ha...

Holidays

Hm... the holidays are going to over. One more day left. The coming school day is really a nightmare for me as most of the teachers is going to return the test papers to us. No~ I had done badly in Civic, Maths and also Pendidikan Seni because I'm not an expert in drawing... Anywhere, i will try my best in the following tests. I'll go all out to get all As'. Failure is never the end of the world.